like many others, i sometimes am a worrysome person, anxious about many things, some of which are not worth being anxious about. i rely heavily on preparation, wanting things to be under control, smoothly flowing.

when circumstances are out of my control, sometimes i get thrown off balance, uncertain how to react or to cope. and then i start worrying. sometimes i really worry.

over the years, i gradually learnt through the bible that God loves me and wants only the best for His children. learning and believing are very different things, but slowly, i also believed.

looking at the fallen state of the world, at times i confess, it is hard to believe that God loves His creation immensely. for many of us, questions like 'why is there suffering' may never be answered completely or adequately.

yet believing in God, i acknowledge his sovereignty in all things, and i know that He is in control. as i learnt more and believed in God's love, i began to commit my cares and concerns to Him, saying,

"God, I may not know, but you know..."

learning to cast my cares unto God has been one of the best things in my life. it eases the burden off my back. it allows me to have that inner peace, knowing that God is in control in all circumstances. even if God were to take my life today, i know He'll take care of my family, my friends, and my unsaved loved ones.

as my relationship with God deepened, the void that had always existed in my life was gradually filled. i tried previously to fill it with music, friendship, accomplishments. none of these could sufficiently fill.

music becomes monotonous, friendships flutter at times, accomplishments bring temporal joy. it was my relationship with God that made me truly complete. i've searched, and nothing else satisfies.

as a christian, i try my best to live life the way God wants me to, loving those around me the way God would. its tough at times, and i'm far from being perfect, but i try nonetheless. i try to share God's love for me with others, so that they too, may share in this love.