ARCHIVES: MAY 2003
.: newton's first law
the most peculiar thing just happened to me today. it was slightly past
9 and i was going about my usual morning jog. i was somewhere along one
of those smaller streets when a car came by.
and guess what, an organiser came hurtling out from the right side of the
car... it was either through the window or the door wasn't shut properly.
so there went the organiser, spinning through the air at a similar velocity
as the car, a perfect example of workable physics, =P. the binding of the
organiser came off and eventually, the organiser, papers and all, impeded
by air resistance, fluttered to the ground, strewn all over the road.
the initially unsuspecting driver continued driving till he saw the mess he
made behind him via his rear mirror. i suspect he also saw a stunned jogger
who just stopped jogging. then came a taxi which ran over the organiser and
the pieces of paper and made a bigger mess. tyre marks all over. grin. hiliarious.
the rest i guess is history... he reversed and picked up the sheets and the
organiser. well dressed middle aged businessman picking up sheets of paper
from the road. i helped him out and we both had a good laugh. nice, jovial
man he was. heh. that really made my day.
well... its off to lab for me now. another 24 blood samples today. :)
fee
fi fo fum.
.: 5. 30 05 03 . 1101
.: lab
sigh. had a bad day today. not exactly sure why, maybe lab had to do with
it... all those repetitions. and also the lab environment... where there's
really not much interaction. i need quality human interaction. we all do,
don't we? relationships energise me.
spent the day extracting dna from 24 blood samples. imagine... this took
from 9am till 3.30pm... including a fifteen minute lunchbreak. its very
methodical and repetitive, words that i dread. you know i'm thinking that
i'm not cut out for lab work at all. some people seem to enjoy it... well
the full time staff don't seem to mind. and the pay is good... my fresh
from polytechnic friend is getting $10+ an hour. what more if you're a PhD
holder.
one of my colleague's at lab she's around my age i think waiting to go to
univerisity... i dunno i think we're freaking each other out. i think its
me, i'm not the very socialble sort... been trying to 'make contact'... like
talk a bit here and there... but i think i've freaked her out, i really dunno
what her impression is... plus its hard to convey messages properly when you're
all masked up. sigh, she's the nice and quiet sort. yeah and she getting freaked
out is making me freak out and vice versa. oh dear, try again tomorrow josh.
.: 4. 29 05 03 . 2204
.: revamped
finally almost finished with this new site. :) think its really pretty, its the nicest i've done. spent a decent time on it though, but i had fun and its good to get in touch with the software again after a long break since sec school, used to do webpages for clubs. thanks man shengxiang for the CSS code, updating the BLOG's much easier now.
a large part of the past 2 days was spent on this site, other than that its been tuition and a bit of lab stuff. tomorrow lab goes full swing... its like normal working hours, so jugging everything will be tricky... probably start writing less in here too. then again, maybe not, i enjoy writing. heh.
sunday was another of those special days for me. not certain exactly why but i thoroughly enjoyed the day. met sx in the afternoon for pool and promptly got beaten 5 games in a row, but we had lots of fun talking about lots of stuff. well, you know the usual range. guy talk. grin.
then it was the evening wedding dinner... good friends with those at my table & had a great time! 2 glasses of white wine helped to lighten the mood. they kept refilling the glasses so technically it might well have been 2+++ glasses! heh, don't worry i was no where near partially drunk. =P
oh dear, i'm kind of dreading going to lab tomorrow. boo.
.: 2. 27 05 03 . 2214
.: love if. love because. love.
congrats to my churchmates Ben & Gen on their wedding! you both look really sweet. and the wedding photographs are excellent too, i feel they depict the different aspects of your personalities very well!
i counted myself. let's see the earliest i could get married will be... 4 more years of school (possibly add another 3 more), 1 year of housemanship, 2 years of NS... gosh. i'd be at least 27, which is a pretty decent age to get married. not too bad really huh.
mom's been asking me more often now about who i like. yeah i catch the hint. grin. heh, but its of course not so simple. i think the 'getting married' bit is easier than 'finding the correct person'. gosh, but i think its really really nice to have that special someone else to share the rest of your life with.
during the church wedding today, our pastor shared an anecdote on love which i found particularly meaningful. 3 kinds of love:
1.
love if : conditional love... you love someone
if they will do something for you... eg. buy you nice clothes, go out with
you, respect you, love you back in return...
2.
love because : loving someone for certain
characteristics the person possesses... eg. pretty, cute, tall dark handsome...
3.
love : simple, plain, unrequited love...
it led me to reflect on the reasons i love. and i think a fair bit of my love exists as 'love becauses'. and that's superficial. tsk tsk... some stuff to think about and perhaps revamp. in my relationships too, i really try to be as authentic and as unsuperficial as possible but sometimes its hard!
love isn't supposed to be superficial. because God's love for mankind didn't stop at looks, personality, behaviour... so why should mankind's love for each other stop there. easier said than done definitely... name me one person who doesn't 'love because'.
heh. oh remember that script i wrote about a few days back? its completed!
its pretty short and not a fantastic script, but it should meet the demands
of the symposium. and its written with specific people in mind. heh. you could
have a look
here. hope you find it funny. :)
feel free to drop me your comments.
.: 6 . 24 05 03 . 2150
.: type
do you believe in those personality tests? i know some people totally reject them. hm, mine so far have been a rather accurate depiction of myself. at least it's what i perceive myself to be, or at times, its who i would like to be.
just a word of clarification... personality test results are not meant to be adhered to. all of us being flexible human beings are capable of a variety of 'personalities' to suit the situations at hand. personality tests merely show you your preferred personality type.
i think the MBTI analysis describes me best. MBTI = Myer-Briggs Type Indicator.
my type's supposed to be ENFP.
E - Extroverted
N - iNtuitive
F - Feeling
P - Perceptive
everyone knows what extroversion means. actually my extroversion and introversion scores are pretty close... extroversion just inching over by a point. shrug, i agree i'm not very extroverted.
intuition (as opposed to sensing) has to deal with how you handle information. people who prefer intuition try to see the 'big picture', focusing on connections and the relationship between facts. they're good at seeing patterns and possibilities.
feeling (as opposed to thinking) has to deal with how you make decisions. if one prefers to use feeling, his decisions are people centered. his goal is harmony and recognition of individuals and their strengths.
perceiving (as opposed to judging) has to do with how you relate to the world. perceivers tend to live in a flexible, spontaneous way, seeking to experience and understand life, rather than control it. they enjoy and trust their resourcefulnes and ability to adapt to the demands of a situation.
all the above sounds pretty nice and noble huh (i paraphrased from a book). well, all personality tests sound like that, they aren't meant to put people down but focus on their strengths. and perhaps they might include some ways to improve.
technically you know with someone's accurate personality type, you could tear him down and rip him apart. just go read any detailed personality book and you'd know all his weaknesses. scary huh.
i guess i know my weaknesses, sometimes i see them blatantly played out in real life. not that i want them to, but its just me. heh. somethings are hard to change, ya. if everything were to change then it wouldn't quite be me anymore, would it?
.: 5 . 23 05 03 . 0004
.: grr...
i don't believe it. i'm barred from the internet tonight... gosh. why? oh cos i used it in the daytime to search for information regarding research. alright i admit i've been using more recently cos of the blog and its the holidays... but come on man, it -is- the holidays.
sigh shouldn't 20 yrs of age bring more independence. i feel a bit insulted honestly, to have to be barred, banned, restricted, inhibited... whatever you call it. alright pls don't laugh at me, know you won't anyway. but even if you do its ok... i'm laughing at my own situation. or at least trying to.
whoever said the world was rational anyway. sigh.
.: 4 . 22 05 03 . 2342
.: shooting
dropped by at the rj air rifle range this afternoon, a few of us seniors decided to go back. heh. don't really know the juniors around now, since i've been out from rj for more than a year, and i wasn't in air rifle in secondary school. but thought it'd be nice to meet the teachers and try my hand at shooting again after two years. grin.
so how did it go...? not great but not bad either. oh, i do the 10m, 0.177mm rifle event. shot an average of 7.95. i used to average 8.5, which was pretty decent. the really pro youth team people do about 9.0 - 9.5, which is fantastic!
air rifle is different from all the other sports in the sense that the last thing you want is an adrenaline rush. adrenaline activates your 'fight or flight' response... makes you breathe harder, your heart pump faster, your muscles almost tremble in anticipation of physical activity. heh.
and of course all the above wouldn't help you in shooting because you want to stay calm, breathe light, muscles relaxed... all this to reduce movement of your body, which supports the gun.
through the eye piece, all you see of the target is a 'full stop', which you attempt to place in the centre of a ring just slightly larger than the target. so you can imagine, any slight movement in any direction would displace the target from its central position, or worse still, out of the ring (that would be catastrophic, heh.).
its also very much a psychological battle. no matter what the score of the previous shot was, you cannot afford to feel exhilerated or frustrated or whatever intense emotion which seems appropriate for the situation... worse still to pressure yourself to hit a certain score. that would almost assure you of screwing up the next shot, due to all the excitement and stress generated.
yeah, check out some of my shots at the pics section and you'll see. heh.
other than that, had driving in the morning, my instructor says i'm more relaxed and fluent now. ...at least i don't grip the steering like i'm on a rollercoaster anymore. haha. i tell you i was really scared the first time i went on the road a few lessons ago. (how about stalling the car in the middle of a U-turn! gosh!) now i'm not so much of a road hazard. grin.
e-mailed my mentor a summary of my review of the research literature and my suggestion for the research project yesterday... she's yet to reply... hope she's not angry or something... (i mean i procrastinated a bit but hey its the holidays... !) heh, this is just me and my paranoid self taking control.
.: 3 . 21 05 03 . 2142
.: ...
just got back from tuition (again!)
you must be wondering how many tuition kids i have... for now, since its the holidays that's perfectly fine and in fact tuition is enjoyable at times. but dunno how its gonna work out once school starts.
and today my student requested that i tutor him twice a week instead of the current once... gosh... but you know i actually enjoy teaching... think i'm quite good at it... all of students have always gotten very decent grades! that gives a sense of satisfaction. plus its nice to be able to explain difficult concepts in a simplistic and clear manner.
before tuition there was a combined ministry meeting in school... kinda like the coordinators of the different christian ministries met to share vision. rather inspiring i'd say... and coordinating any kind of ministry isn't easy i must say.
heh, before that, i was reading up more on schizophrenia. i think i might have finally found a niche. think its worth doing a gene study on the enzymes which metabolise the glutamate and gaba neurotransmitters and see if there's any correlation with the incidence of schizophrenia. (stunned right. grin.) shh... its a secret... =P
.: 2 . 20 05 03 . 2253
.: of turnips and yam
my younger brother just called me a yam so i called him a turnip. heh, right... that doesn't sound very mature i know. gosh. but that's what just happened... usually we have more intellectual conversations, he's pretty smart for a 12 yr old you know. grin.
spent the day reading up on the research literature. gosh... i'm not too comfortable with the idea of prescribing antipsychotic medications to patients. its like the antipsychotics are very 'wide acting'... highly non-specific... affecting a significant portion the neurotransmitter system.
and i can't imagine what that actually does to you as a person... is your true personality still preserved? or do you become a pale version of your true self? gosh... i guess in the case of schizophrenics the benefits outweigh the potential costs, so it makes sense to prescribe drugs. but to lose your distinct persona... ...
ugh, and singapore isn't sars free after all. heh. it had to be on the last day, didn't it. wise not to have overly high expectations always.
my mom taped a chinese programme on Dr Alexandre Chao, the vascular surgeon who passed away from sars. was pretty moved by his actions... his demeanour was always one of compassion and love.
on the show, one of Dr Chao's patients mentioned that he subsidised some of the minor procedures (but yet still costly) from his own pocket, due to the patient's poor financial condition. and that's just one, probably there were many more.
i aspire to be like that. to be contented with what i have, and the rest to be used for better purposes. yet such dreams are so easily eroded by the influences around... large houses, luxury cars... but i guess its always nice to dream... and who knows someday i'll fulfill mine. :)
.: 1 . 19 05 03 . 2305
.: fatigue
gosh its been a long long time since i've been this tired!! i actually sense myself needing slight effort to breathe... heh.
0100h : went to bed... zzz.
0630h : woke up... snooze
0720h : jumped out of bed! oh no i'm supposed to be in church at 0745 !!!
0745h : final worship practice in church
0830h : youth ministry programme begins
1030h : youth ministry programme ends, go home.
1215h : leave for tuition
1300h : tuition at Somerset
1600h : tuition at Pasir Ris
1830h : finally home, dinner, and helped sis with her chem
a really long, mentally straining day. gosh... i was feeling a bit giddy at my 2nd tuition class but thankfully that left me after a while. heh.
really thank God for this morning's worship. it went smoothly, the mood everything was just right. and i know it wasn't by my own strength, but truly God's grace and leading. i guess if you aren't a Christian you wouldn't understand what i'm saying, but in a nutshell, i know that it wouldn't have been successful without God's hand in it.
a survey showed that one of the three most topics people find interesting is 'religion'. (one of the other two topics is 'property' and the last one i think you can guess) if i had to pick a word to describe what's so interesting about religion... i would pick 'mysterious'. heh. its like some people are so sure and unwavering in their belief... yet there is no clear cut evidence of the existence of God. its not as straight forward as science or mathematics.
yet i believe, hard to say why i do. probably because of experiences and a strong, somewhat unexplainable conviction deep inside. mm... hey if you want to talk more i'm always pleased to share!
mm... the rj chorale concert yesterday evening was pleasant. a bit short in terms of the programme but i really enjoyed myself! i especially liked one of the love songs. grin. met up with a couple of old friends, kenneth a close friend from choir in sec sch, shengrong from my psl class... ... a couple of others from my psl class too... will you belive it they're all taller than me! by a decent height. gosh... and the impression i still have of them is like little sec1s running around the classroom. talk about a culture shock!
.: 7 . 18 05 03 . 2220
.: ...
wo... haven't written in here for some time now, been rather tied down... usually i write in the evenings but been out a lot at night recently. tuesday evening dinner with lynn my counsellor and a couple of friends, wednesday evening bbq at my friend deborah's place (hey, the karaoke session was really enjoyable!), thursday evening tuition and yesterday evening worship practice in church.
heh. ought to spend more time at home... but whoops, tonight i'm going to catch a choir concert back at rj. wow, there's actually quite a lot to do over the holidays. i've never been -this- slack all my life! grin grin.
oh yah, i'm leading worship at the youth ministry tomorrow morning. gosh, that's a new challenge really, will have to muster all my extroversion, stay calm, turn my focus to God and not to the surroundings or what others might think of me. mm. that does make sense, doesn't it... after all, worship is about God and not about how good the music or the leaders are.
still owe my research mentor a review of the research literature regarding the GABA (gamma-amino butyric acid) neurotransmitter system and schizophrenia. in the process of looking for a niche to do my research in now. finding an appropriate niche is important cos you don't want to go into an area in which extensive and extremely competitive research has been done. not now at least when i'm just a green-horn research student. grin.
have a pleasant weekend everyone & with luck singapore will be sars free tomorrow!
.: 6 . 17 05 03 . 1220
.: survivor
heh... i like that show. i'm a fan of deena and christy. grin... strong people, these are... adversities and all can't put them down. impressed. deena's the district attorney, admire her strength of personality and charisma. christy's the deaf girl who grew up reading lips and made it to the jury in survivor, need i say more?
while survivor celebrates the courage, it also shows the viciousness of human nature... the way we're a fallen creation, doomed to pursue personal success at the expense of others. and isn't survivor about shapeshifting. heh.
"Being a funny person does an awful
lot of things to you.
You feel that you mustn't get serious with people.
They don't expect it from you, and they don't want to see it.
You're not entitled to be serious, you're a clown,
and they only want you to make them laugh"
- Fanny Brice
no i've never thought of myself as a funny person, but william shakespeare might be right when he said the world's a stage and we are but players on it. and the role which each of us is entitled to play, is not so much determined by ourselves, but determined more by the expectations of those around us.
ever tried to become more studious or more funky? its pretty hard if you're
on the extreme ends of the muggertoad-funkyfrog spectrum. grin. recall the
mild expressions of shock from those around you? "you
mean you
were
in the library studying till 10 today?" or "you
mean you
weren't
in the library studying till 10 today?".
hm, not a very strong case made above, but it shall suffice. while your actions and speech determines how others first perceive you, once that perception is formed, it's pretty tough to break away from it. if you like who you are, this suits you perfectly fine. but for someone who's trying to change or improve himself for whatever reason, it's gonna be pretty tough.
alright enough of philosophy or psychology for now... i actually took pretty long to phrase the above paragraphs coherently. heh.
guess i had a pretty ordinary day... oh except that i was late for yet another meeting. whoops. this time was with my orientation director... i got the time of the meeting wrong! oh gosh! heh. mom and sis say that i mumble. do i? that's something worth watching out for.
.: 1 . 12 05 03 . 2202
.: happy endings
just finished watching "parent trap"... loved it. grin. the twins are absolutely adorable, the way they plot and scheme. grin. oh how sweet, to rediscover love once lost. oh ok i better stop gushing before you get the wrong idea. heh. yeah, these walt disney films are always rather uplifting... they all have a happy ending!
i'm still in a good mood! dipped a bit yesterday, but today i feel pretty comfortable with myself again. heh. does feeling comfortable with myself = good mood? shrug, i really dunno.
had a horrendously long afternoon... had 2 tuition sessions straight... both my first time students. not bad i'd say... hope i managed to add value and clear doubts.
for one of them, his dad insisted on sitting through part of the lesson, will you believe that? heh. he kinda like told me what i ought to teach... mm... can understand his anxiety... but in a conflict of opinions, the tutor ought to have the final say right? thought i handled the situation pretty well, politely but firmly declining his suggestions and explaining why i was doing what i was.
mm that was good. one thing not-so-good about today was the way i taught my sec 2 sunday school class... shucks think sometimes i speak in a really covoluted manner. mm should relax and slow down a bit to be clearer. mm. heh rather retrospective today.
oh we went out yesterday evening to celebrate mothers' day... got my mom a 'risky' gift but she liked it thankfully! love her a whole lot. sometimes we don't see eye to eye... and neither of us gives in easily... but it goes way beyond that. i'd say she's the person i love most in this world.
.: 7 . 11 05 03 . 2213
.: drama
guess what? i'm going to act again! yippee! i think in terms of hobbies, there's nothing i like better than drama. grin.
see, we're doing a skit for the jc students coming for the medical quiz symposium. the symposium's titled "the first year of medical school: from cradle to grave" haha. what do you think of the title? rather catchy and thought provoking but unprofessional. well, its a trade-off. heh.
actually the symposium's meant to attract more people to come and watch the quiz, so that there'll be some kind of competition ambience. past year's honestly the support for the participating schools has been pathetic.
haven't thought about what the skit should be about... but probably to do with our M1 lives. yah, i'm writing the script too! hm the last time i wrote a proper play script (excluding class plays & mini skits) was in sec 4, for the inter-house drama festival. the script started off well i'd say, but along the way it lost its themes. and it was way too mello-dramatic. let's just say someone died. don't ask. grin.
it was rather a disaster eventually. heh. felt i let the directors, cast and crew down. horrible feeling. i guess i definitely could have spent more time on it, but my interest waned after a while. mm... never mind, can always try again. :) this time it'll be better!
mm the kayaking thing with my church went pretty ok... i was doing the icebreakers, wasn't too sure how to start it going... like the people were 18 to 20+++... hard to get them ra ra about stuff at times. mm... i think i need to smile and relax more. heh.
oh would you believe it, i spilled lots of stuff during meal times today. dropped 2 chilli ladies fingers at lunch in 2 separate incidents... spilled my dad's half cup of coke... and over dinner, i flicked crab sauce over my shirt... not too conspicuously thankfully. heh. shrug, no particular reason... just plan butter fingers. heh.
.: 6 . 10 05 03 . 2228
.: :)
i'm happy again!! grin grin. wow. it's been a long time since i've been this happy. grin. not particularly sure why, but for once i feel pretty much myself, heh that's cause for joy, isn't it? grin.
hm, what triggered this? i don't know... perhaps its the interacting with lots of people today, having meaningful relationships forged and strengthened. staying at home a lot the past couple of weeks have really drained me and today i was just so happy to go out and talk to everyone. heh.
i suddenly realise it's so important to be happy, joyful, optimistic... a close friend once mentioned that one of her big fears would be to wake up not being able to feel happy.
you know those self help books say its a choice... to a certain extent i agree, its a choice at times, but situations do have to complement the mood... too many dreary situations and the best of us get bogged down into a somber mood.
had a jam packed day today but it was really one of the best days of my life! had a crusade cell grp gathering over lunch... then went neighbour's bday party (Jasmine, i had lots of fun & the food rocked!! thanks for having me over. :)... then went for a medical quiz comm meeting at marche city hall.
i was really late for the comm meeting, it started at 4 pm... and i, the honorary vice chairperson was there at 5.30 pm. heh. you see, i was at the party before that and it made sense to stay till the cake was cut. grin.
thankfully my comm was really understanding. grin. i treated them to ice cream, felt extremely bad, in a sense to assuage my guilt but really they're a fantastic committee, efficient, friendly, understanding. love them.
going kayaking with my church's young adult's ministry tmr afternoon... heh more fun and meaningful interactions hopefully. to whoever's reading, thanks and hope you had a good day too!
.: 5 . 09 05 03 . 2300
.: A A A-
A A A-, sounds like some kind of standard & poors rating for the financial health of companies. grin. these are my grades for my first professional mbbs exams. A for anatomy, A for biochemistry and A- for physiology.
not bad right. i'm contented, really ought to be. but i guess in each of us there's always there greedy streak, endlessly wanting for more. to be honest i was hoping for an A+ for anatomy, my pet subject. grin. thank God for the results nonetheless!
how do you like the new look of my webpg? revamped it again cos i thought the original looked too childish. heh... this webpg is taking me longer than expected, but can't help it, too much of a perfectionist. it has to look exactly the way i want it to. heh.
.: 4 . 08 05 03 . 0035
.: how to fit in
"Aunt Alexandra fitted into the world
of Maycomb like a hand into a glove,
but never into the world of Jem and me."
- Scout Finch, in To Kill a Mockingbird
went off to Sentosa this afternoon with a bunch of my classmates from medicine, played soccer and volleyball at the beach. finally, some exercise! to burn off that extra 2-3 kg i put on over the exam period.
don't most people lose weight during the exam period? considering the stress and the late nights. but it does *seem* that i put on weight! i attribute it to the long hours of inactivity sitting down motionless, save for the flipping of pages. wonder how many calories it takes to flip a page. haha.
i'd say i had fun today. bunch of pretty cool guys i was with, rather close knitted bunch too. yeah... had fun, but at times i felt like a bicycle (see entry on 1 may). i honestly tried hard to 'fit in', but couldn't quite make it. just too different. heh.
i don't think trying to 'fit in' means i'm compromising my individuality... its just that 'fitting in' allows you to best enjoy the situation... considering i was going to spend the whole afternoon with them, it made sense to establish some sort of rapport. fitting in during a game is not much of a problem... sports gels the male gender together rather effortlessly. but its more the times when there's a break in the sports and conversations arise etc when i sense the distance.
come to think of it, in most situations, most of us are induced fits rather than lock & key (think enzyme hypotheses, heh). aren't most of us shapeshifters (think x-men), tweaking ourselves to blend in with the core group. the better we blend, the more gratifying the social experience. yeah... except perhaps with your close clique, or your spouse... only then perhaps might it be somewhat like a lock & key model.
its incredible how versatile humans are. some people think that shapeshifting is hypocritical. yeah, maybe it is. consider though, the opinion that shapeshifting helps you to best deal with the situation at hand.
ever had an aunty contort her voice over the phone while ordering pizza? grin. that's her way of coping with the situation, and i honestly don't blame her. think only when the ability to shapeshift is used for malicious purposes... that's when it's wrong.
why is the example above an 'aunty' and not an 'uncle'... ? simple. females are better shapeshifters than males. this isn't a sexist statement, its a fact, and as mentioned above, shapeshifting isn't necessarily bad. hence the better social skills.
i don't think i'd want to be a female, but i certainly wouldn't mind being a better shapeshifter. grin.
.: 3 . 07 05 03 . 2350
.: 2^30 - 2
Horrors of horrors, as if my lab work isn't enough... the procedure of PCR & Electrophoresis... its even in The Straits Times! Page twenty-something, Home section.
Which leads me to lament on the commencement of my lab project next week. Its on the pharmacogenetics of schizophrenia. Sounds big, huh. Basically its just gene studies about how different people metabolise drugs differently.
And like all gene study projects, it involves P & E. So if you've got two hundred patient samples, presuming a success rate of 100%, you'd have done P & E 200 times. You multiply this by the number of mutations you're studying, lets say 10. Bingo. 2000 repetitions. After this you compare with the clinical findings, and hopefully the results are statistically significant, if not, its back to the drawing board.
Doesn't sound too appealing, not to me at least. Shrug, beginning to seriously think that the research field isn't where I'd like to be. Shall persist for this last project and if things don't improve, that might be it. Grin.
.: 7 . 04 05 03 . 1415
.: do not release the clutch too quickly
Poor Josh had his 3rd driving lessson of his life today. And promptly stalled the car a total of 6 times. Brilliant if you ask me, grin. Well, give him some credit for going up to 4th gear and not knocking the cyclists down.
Cyclists, they're everywhere! I must have met more than 5 today while on the road. Inconspicuous 2 wheelers weaving about the traffic. Best left off the road, if you ask me. Then again the pedestrains don't want them on the footpaths either. Hm do you sometimes feel like a bicycle? Kinda misplaced, heh.
I guess the question everyone will be asking is why have a BLOG? shouldn't some stuff be left secret? Yeah, of course... this isn't going to be a bare-it-all experience, but well I might drop a couple of titbits here and there. -grin- I've kept a personal diary once or twice in my life, never successfully. Probably because I'm of the opinion that there's no point writing something if no one else is going to read it.
BLOGs are good for keeping in touch with friends too don't you think? Especially for those guys whom you hardly meet in real life... reading about their experiences allows you to know what's up in their lives... their joys and struggles. It's almost like letter-writing, and it gives your friends the option of getting to know you more, if they want to. You'll be surprised at how much you can learn about a person from his or her BLOG. heh.
Stars shining in the sycamore tree, dream a little dream of me.
.: 4 . 01 05 03 . 1225